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| wish the boyfriend would take me out on a date or surprise me sometimes. i wanna do really fun and exciting things. when i get my license i guess ill just have to be the adventure leader!!!
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| I dont know why but it seems like things come so easily to other people but things are hard for me and i have to work twice as hard to get them. and I still never feel like I do anything right. but I will always strive to do my best <3333333 It just really gets frustrating 
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| I just think some guys will never stop using their southern brain over their northern one. I mean seriously, you date one girl and then try to date her best friend? when you KNOW ur own brother is finally getting a chance at true happiness? some people are just really fucked up i think. I definitly made an EXCELLENT decision grape jamboree weekend. And now im the happiest ive ever been :0) spending time in michigan was mucho fun. totally nice to be away from lamesville for awhile. Missed my boy tho :0( Slumdog millionaire was sweet. grad party was SO fun :0) sucks to know tho that some poor girl somewheres boyfriend tries to get with every girl at a party while shes not there... seriously people, use the correct brain here.... luckily for her none of the girls there would mess with someone who has a girlfriend. too classy for that!! thank God...it's a rare thing nowadays...and ofcourse I didn't either becasue im happily taken <3333333 So I've been having panic attacks for the last two or three nights. Ihate them! I also dreamed about first day of college the other night. It's funny, I've never had those "oooo I'm so nervous for school" dreams, until now! Perhaps because college is ur future? perhaps because it costs SHIT TONS of money? perhaps because I dont even know what I want as my major!? ugh. well in the dream I had like a ton of bags and kept spilling everything out of them and broke my laptop and everything! it was horrible. And i was late and couldnt find my classes, etc. I'm sure it'll be fine in reality, if i can keep my ass concentrated. I've just never been a fan of school, but who knows maybe I'll like college. Heres to hoping! | | |
| I had a really stressful weekend. but I stayed at Chriss sunday night, we played video games, all that good stuff. He made me breakfast in bed :0) the sweetie. I had a sandwich today that consisted of chicken spinach and cucumbers never mix cucumbers with chicken its not very tasty. I really hope this year doesnt suck. Im ognna be SO busy once college starts, I really dont wanna go to be honest with you. I'm only going because I know I have to. But it sucks ass. especially cuz I dont know what I wanna do. A person like me has a really hard time finding something because Im freaking everywhere. I have so many likes, but I would get so bored with just one job for the rest of my life. I wish I could get paid to travel lol. Maybe be an underwater photographer. that would be dope. Or take pictures of islands. I had dance class today, hip hop modern and we started learning a tango :0) its quite erotic...and i have to have a partner! lucky for me chris doesnt really get mad at stuff unnecessary to get mad at. welllllllllllll thats all i gotta say lata cant wait to go to michigan on the 12 i leave with the lovely cook family :0) and also kts grad party is comin
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| why is it cold in ohio right now, damn it. its july. it should be scorching. and why do i have to work at a grocery store. I need more than that. The job itself is fine for anyone who feels content there, but I surely do not. I hate dreading going into work. I hate living my life that way. I like almost all the people that work with me but the pay is shitty. the customers are rude as hell. I hate getting up so early and moving at such a fast pace. It makes me feel physically sick being up that early and moving so much. But I always come in and never call off. I always keep that smile on my face. I always try to get things done to the best of my ability. I wish I could have a job where if I had to work early in the morning i could be more laid baCK. ugh. Or maybe A fun nightlife job since I'm always awake till God knows how late because for some reason my body doesnt let me sleep. I like workingm just not particularly at a grocery store.
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